Cause Life Happens

Hi everyone! I hope you are doing well and staying safe. This is going to be a little different than what I have been posting. I always wanted at some point, to let you all into my life, so here goes... April of 2020 has probably been the worst month of my life. Despise COVID-19, I have been keeping a positive attitude and I know that this phase of life is temporary and things will get better. Something that I never imagine that would happen to me did and that was losing my job. Yes, I am unemployed and never thought I would be saying those words. 

That is the main reason why I have not been active. I didn't even have the motivation to read. Which y'all know is something I love to do. Of course, I was upset and thought maybe I was not grateful enough or I was taking advantage of my position, but this was totally out of my control. I worked in the recruiting field, supporting one of the nation's biggest engineer fields. At the moment, that field is not exactly thriving and unfortunately my job was impacted. I never thought that at 24 I would experience this. I have always been a hard-worker and pushing myself to do the best that I can. I had the mindset that unemployment was never going to happen to me. 

Currently, I am back with my positive mindset and occasionally looking to see what is out there. Something I realized when I lost my job is that I put some of my worth into my career. What I mean by that is I felt part of my identity was taken away the moment I got the news that I was getting let go, and that is not okay. Yes, I do want to have a meaningful career and do the things I love, but I don't want it to define me. During this time, I am looking forward in taking a break from regular life and focus on things I love to do, like reading, writing, and girly things. I realized even though it does suck to not have a job right now, when will I get another moment like this. Were I am not worrying about things I need to get done for work or working towards the next step in my career. I can just live in the moment and just focus on my well-being and that is something I have not done since I started high school. 

Thank you so much for taking the time and reading about my life. I really do appreciate it! I know is not a happy post, but when I signed up for this I promised myself that I was going to be 100% transparent and here I am. I hope you have an amazing day/night 😊

Talk to you soon!

Marina